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Choosing To Fail

May 31st, 2005 · 2 Comments · 8 views

Ever been in a place where your failings just keep popping up and it doesn’t really matter what you do…you can’t get around them? I’m not talking about the huge moral failure kind - although I guess this rant could apply to those as well. The past 5 days have been that kind of journey for me.

We’ve got one kid signed up for middle school camp. 1. Uno. Eins. 1. I don’t think I’ve ever seen this in my entire life. One kid. And yeah, there are mitigating circumstances - like the migration of our Campus Crusade families to staff training in July…aka The Pilgrimage.

But one kid?

And the deposit for the camp is gone which is going to put me so over budget they may garnish my wages - and we can’t have our wages garnishy, can we? (Fletch reference.) I still haven’t done the budget for next year or turned in receipts for this month.

Now I know that I am not a complete dork because we’ve done and seen some cool things lately. Like preaching…well, except for the P & M comment… Our student leaders we have for the fall are going to be incredible. The adult Coaching life group starts up this weekend and I am pumped at what God is going to do through these couples.

Plus, we have a new couple coming on Youth Staff who are wonderful. Steve is working and finishing up his Gospel according to Spiderman curriculum for next year. The Getaway for the high school crew is going to be awesome.

But administratively I can not get it together…and it feels like the harder I try, the worse I make it.

Here is how ridiculous I am wired. I have four huge goals for adult life groups this year and a plan to get there. We’ve got a huge, incredibly exciting possibility for 5.36 next year and a plan to implement that as well. But I can’t get out of the week in front of me…

How jacked is that?

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2 responses so far ↓

  • 1 Wayne // Jun 1, 2005 at 8:29 am

    Sometimes the best thing to do is hide under a rock until the week is over.

    Sounds like justification for a paid administrative assistant for the Student Pastor to me.

    Keep on man…will be praying for you.

  • 2 jeremy sawatzky // Jun 1, 2005 at 11:49 am

    hey man,

    im resonating with what youre saying, in a slightly different sense. im busy getting ready to speak at 6 different jr/sr high camps across the canadian prairies this summer, and ive just been overwhelmed trying to prepare an assortment of talks, while worrying about whether or not they will be relevant or interesting or whatever. ive spent much time sitting and staring at my computer screen this week, and yeah… well, i guess thats not really the same as your situation, but im feeling overwhelmed and a bit worn down, too. so i hear ya bud.

    not to sound like a cliche, but ill be praying for ya.

    and, if you need a good laugh, check out my site today… hopefully it makes you smile a bit :) and perhaps laugh as well!

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