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Good night…I’m hoping this is just a season for me but I can’t seem to write anything worth posting lately.
Busy? Yeah, but who isn’t, right? It’s not really busyness that’s kept my blog quiet as of lately. Actually, pace has gotten better in the last few weeks. I’m getting my feet underneath me learning this new culture, new role, new town, new friends, new everything. And everything is new.
I’m not sure why the dry season in my writing right now. It just is. Been here before…doesn’t make it any less frustrating but at least I know in the back of mind it’s not going to last forever. Or will it?
That’s the real fear of dry spots – both in writing, in our marriages, in our work, in our walk with Jesus. The real fear and anxiousness isn’t that it’s dry in this moment. The real fear is ‘how long will this last?’ Is this it? Is this as good as it is ever going to get? Have I hit the wall?
I’ve responded in two different ways in that spot. Go backwards or go forwards. Remember the good old days? They really weren’t that good when I was there and I’m not that old. Let’s go back to what we know. Or – slam it forward. Do something to trigger this funk on up out of here. (Insert bass line here.)
Is this the point where a spiritual sage says – “Stay in the moment.” “Be still and know…” Maybe. I think there are times we’re still, I think there are times to spring forward through the dry times. Going backwards? No. And I don’t see backwards as repentance. Repentance is a course correction as we go forward.
Odd thing…not dry in my walk with Jesus…just dry in writing, putting thoughts on paper…or in HTML as it were. To steal a line from C.S. Lewis – time to go ‘further up and further in.’
5 responses so far ↓
1 Jill // Jun 4, 2009 at 2:22 pm
dry in your writing, eh? i’m not sure i believe you after reading this post.
2 wayne // Jun 5, 2009 at 7:55 am
Maybe you are internally coming to the realization that blogging is passe’
Whatever the reason, I like how you put “Have I hit THE wall?” Most of us say “a wall.” But I like your use of the definite article in this case. Being at the point where I feel like I’ve hit THE wall in certain areas in my life…and “a” wall in others.
The spiritual sage, as you say, may say it’s time to stop and ponder THE wall — (insert pink floyd reference) — is it wider, longer, taller, made of a stronger brick? Why has THE wall appeared? Did you see it on the horizon? Does this desert exist on the other side or is the wall keeping me from falling off a cliff?
3 David Hitchcock // Jun 5, 2009 at 3:26 pm
Grant you are not dry in your writing. I call it growing in Jesus Christ. Grant you are a very creative writer and someday you will write books like Andy Stanley and Yancy. Keep on writing and let the Lord have the keyboard.
4 mom // Jun 5, 2009 at 5:48 pm
Wise words for you Grant. Don’t be discouraged.
God is working a great work in you for His glory and His timing.
5 Kitty // Jun 6, 2009 at 1:02 pm
It’s hard to live in “wait” mode. Imagine the Israelites’ not hearing from God for 400 years. Talk about DRY!
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